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80 Day Obsession The Day After

Transparency and perspective

I don’t even know where to begin to describe this journey. I started the 80 Day Obsession full of excitement and anticipation. THIS IS IT!

This is going to be where Change happens for me! I set a goal of loosing 25 pounds.

Yeah, so that didn’t happen! I actually gained 1/2 pound. I continued to encourage others when they were frustrated with the scale not moving while secretly wanting to throw mine off the deck right square in the middle of the back yard. I WANTED those numbers not to matter…but they still did. I compared myself with others. I started to see lots of inches coming off and then I started to panic. My skin is sagging and bagging. I struggled with seeing body parts change. My pants that were loose were getting tight and sliding down, I could not keep them up and I was getting frustrated. Praise the Lord going through this day to day, Autumn and the cast seemed to be in the same spots often. My perspective…this program is working for everyone but me. Now my pants don’t fit and I don’t understand.

Autumn’s perspective…my pants won’t stay up…BOOTY GAINS!

(That was the week I added booty measurements to my list to track!)

#perspective

Lies I told myself:

Lie: Some days, I had excuses, I cannot do that move, I am just too heavy and my body won’t go.

Truth: that move was HARD AH and I did not want to do it. It challenged me and I hated it.

Lie: I cannot do it. I can NOT do triceps pushups.

Truth…I don’t like them but I can do them modified. I can continue to make progress, I will do tricep pushups on my toes in the next round.

Lie: I cannot post that, so and so won’t like it. I can’t post my journey too much, people don’t want to see it. I can’t show that, someone will be offended.

Truth: There is an unfollow button that I use often. People have a choice to see what I post, the truth…I don’t want to see it. What IF someone sees the truth.

As I am seeing all these transformation pictures coming out, I am so proud of so many of these people I was in a group with. These aren’t airbrushed and altered, they are a result of hard work. That said, I am also seeing some pictures that aren’t maybe 100% transparent.

I have a not so secret secret…..

I have a c-section hangover. I hate it.

I LOVE my babies that cake out if there. But I Hate that Hangover.

It’s a reminder of not taking care of myself, thinking I was eating for two.

I hate the bulge under the pants and I just want it gone. Yesterday. I have seen other people’s pictures and been like, how awesome, they lost soooo much weight but I don’t want my skin to sag like that.

My purpose is to encourage others. In order for me to do that in a way that’s honest and transparent. I don’t weigh almost 300 pounds anymore but there are days that I still see that person. There are days I look in the mirror and don’t see any change.

Those are the days I have to give myself a pep talk. This is a journey. It took me a lot of years to get in the condition I was in and it’s going to take hard work to get to where I want to be. As I reflect on this last 80 days, I’m actually, HONESTLY thankful I didn’t loose pounds this round. I have learned sooo much in the process. I’ve identified behaviors that got me in the position to NEED CHANGE. I have learned that while my number doesn’t need to be where it is, IT IS another what defines me.

I’ve also learned, I want to be more transparent. Even if it’s ugly. Even if it’s hard. Even if it stretches me. Because That is where the change will happen. In the Hard.

Make sure you aren’t comparing yourself to anyone else’s journey. Make sure when you see thousands of before and afters that you remember those afters are usually the best

takes. Don’t measure your results against those afters!

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80 Day Obsession

80 Day Obsession Day 71

Day 71 was Leg Day

I love Phase 3 leg day! I feel strong. Today was tough (see below) but I did it and I feel pretty bada$$ not gonna like!

The Nutrition:

Nutrition was good but I did notice I had more sweet cravings today after refeed day. I added a Daily Sunshine in the afternoon to combat that!

How do you stay motivated?

This is one of the top questions I get.

The answer….I don’t.

I don’t stay motivated.

When I did the 21 Day Fix, I was motivated every day, it was new and exciting, I was dropping weight quickly.

This program, I still haven’t dropped pounds, pretty likely that is not happening this round!

Although I have lost inches, what I have gained is immeasurable.

I have gained what I have lacked in every other program after my first couple rounds of 21 day Fix.

Determination and commitment.

I have had a few nights if not sleeping great. Couple that with a nasty storm last night, allergies and my RA being a PITA, I woke up with a heck of a headache today!

I got up and got ready to workout, thinking if I could just start, I would be ok. The time kept changing, I will do it at 10,11, 12..

I could have just said I will take a rest day, I could have just dialed it in, because I assure you, there was ZERO motivation.

So what made me head downstairs to workout? The same thing that had me press pause after round one, grab a couple ibuprofen and go right back down and finish every rep. It’s what made me jump when I haven’t jumped before. It’s what made me squat deeper and push harder.

No, I wasn’t motivated. I was DETERMINED, I was committed. When you aren’t motivated, when you don’t feel well, when you have stress, or a cat that pooped on your bed, THAT is when discipline kicks in!

That is what I have learned I this last 71 days.

I have learned on the days I don’t want to the most, those are the days I need to work the hardest. That’s where the growth happens.

What do you do when you loose motivation?

The ENDGAME:

Although the workout was harder with the pain of RA, the fatigue from not sleeping well and the headache from allergies, this was probably one of my BEST workouts. I left it all on the floor and I learned a lot about what I can do. I can do hard things!

I have finished with Day 71 and I am all in for Day 72 through 80!

80 Day Obsession

80 Day Obsession Day 70

Day 70 was Cardio Flow

What can I say, Cardio Flow is always hard but I am finally not hating it….as much! Can’t say I will be sad to see it go for my week off!

The Nutrition:

Nutrition was good. It was a refeed day and I was happier with my choices. I didn’t feel as fatigued or as bloated!

The ENDGAME:

I have finished with Day 70 and I am all in for Day 71 through 80!